Five Things....

Five uplifting things said to me:
1. "You are such a beautiful mommy, you are so natural at it."
2. "She (Emily) radiates warmth, beauty and love....just like her mother."
3. "You look just like your mother."
4. "Hello gorgeous."
5. "Can we have a daughter exactly like yours?"

Five painful things said to me:
1. "You really should reconsider ever having children." (This was before emily...)
2. "I've been dating him for the past 3 months...."
3. "He was planning on moving up here"
4. "They just really need me to work for another couple of days..."
5. "You just don't think"

Five things I'd do again in a heartbeat:
1. The first year of my childs life! Every day has been such a gift...I would never trade it for anything in the world...but I'd love to do it again! (hopefully someday I'll have more!)
2. Everything with Rocky, even through all of the pain and heartbreak I am going through now, I have the best part of him! I'd do anything for my sweet Emily Jane. Plus I have learned so much about love, life and people... I honestly wouldn't trade it. I don't know if I'll ever love like that again...it's too risky.
3. Leave the office to work at home
4. Help a girlfriend through her pregnancy
5. Go Blonde!

Five things I'd do differently:
1. I'd ask for help and support from friends and family during childbirth, delivery and recovery
2. Work harder at nursing my baby
3. Stand up for myself in school and the years to follow
4. Be exactly who I wanted to be in highschool without the fear of judgement by others
5. Exercise and eat right!

Five of my sweetest memories:
1. Finding out that we were having a baby, and knowing it had been created from pure love (Something I still know)
2. Being Pregnant
3. Holding my daughter for the first time
4. My best-friendship with my brother and growing up so close together
5. The good times with Rocky

Five memories I'd rather forget:
1. The day "she" came over
2. The ultimate in betrayal from my previous "friends"
3. Things said/done hurtful in my relationship with Rocky
4. A lot of "events" involving my father
5. Hangovers!